Below are the 15 most recent journal entries recorded in mytruetears' LiveJournal:

Sunday, April 3rd, 2005
7:22 pm	i HaVeN'T wRiTTeN iN fOrEvEr AgAin! wow i havent written in this stupid thing since december 12th. what can i say i am one busy chica! well i guess i will update you on my life...my dad is getting married again. my grandpa's lung cancer is gone so thats a good thing. school still sucks i am so bad at it. i'm hopefully getting a car soon (omg camaro-cross your fingers for luck). my life is interesting... but i cant really think of anything cuz everyday is interesting...and that would be too much to type. i went to pat green and clay walker with shannon & that was super fun. we saw PAT FUCKIN GREEN! lol and clay walker. so much fun. wow a few weekends ago i got so drunk. i think i will stop drinking so much cuz i did a lot of stupid things. speaking of stupid things, it's been 7 months since the whole lindsay thing---everyone GET OVER iT!!!! (spilker, brosky, mccleary, grossman, all of y'all!!! lol oh i'm crazy...but dont you know i like my life that way?     -pat green that song makes me think of nik... i dont know why? o0o0o0o nik lol <3. "...and that's all i got to say about that." i am going to prom yay!!!! i bought my dress yesterday it is sooo pretty its black with these silver flowers on it. i dunno it sounds ugly when i describe it but i look so pretty in it. i guess i will go now, there's not a lot to talk about... bye! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Pat Green (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 12th, 2004
12:08 am	i HaVeN'T wRiTTeN iN FoReVeR!!!! wow not much has been going on in two months besides my super bad grades. that and my grandpa was diagnosed with lung cancer. i would sit here and tell all of yall not to smoke, but i know it wont help. i just know that i wont because i dont want to be like that ya know? but whatever. i got a job babysitting this little boy everyday after school. its a pretty awesome job cuz he's eight years old and he pretty much takes care of himself. i'm really proud of myself for getting a job, it makes me feel old. wow my dad = asshole to the max. he's had three wives, he's about to get a new one, and he's cheating on her!!! what the hell??!! and my grandmother (on my dads side) was diagnosed with alzheimers, so now she lives in a nursing home but she calls it the cage lol. and she thinks everyone is her grandchild, even laura (ask her about it!) hahaha its crazy. and before she went to the nursing home about 4 months ago, my grandpa (her sorta husband, they had a trailor together) left her with some woman and we think they are in mexico. hmm this is my family for you. and yes, thats all true. seriously. hahaha i kinda figure that i should laugh about it all because worrying causes wrinkles. but i guess laughing does too? o well you cant have the best of both worlds. i wish i could write more, but theres not a lot to talk about. christmas is coming soon...whatever. bye. Current Mood: okay Current Music: GeOrGe sTrAiT- eAsY cOmE, eAsY gO (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
12:25 pm	home again...sick. truth? too depressed to go. school itself depresses the hell out of me. like what the hell are we doing there??? theres a huge world out there and i'm learning about stuff that wont even apply to the real world. like matrixes and julius ceasar. speaking of that man---it was like two thousand years ago. get over it. i guess i will have to go back to school tomorrow considering if i miss another day i probably cant exempt anything. which would suck. i broke up with ryan...wow he was a winner. sarcasm. i should have known better from past experience that he'd leave considering every person i have ever cared about has. just get up and leave alex. i think this is all i will write considering i am bored, depressed, and tired as hell. and i have nothing to say. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: yOu WeRe MeAnT FoR mE- JeWeL (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 28th, 2004
11:05 pm	wHaT gUyS sHouLd kNoW aBoUt GirLs What guys should know about girls...(all that apply to aleXxX) - we're as afraid of you as you are of us - we try to impress you most of the time (just with little things) - we flirt alot if we like you - we flirt alot period (but we try not to be ditzy!) whatever i'm ditzy anyway - we LOVE hugs (specially when u kinda pick us up and it ends in a small, but effective kiss) - we hate it when youre ignorant (seriously..not cool...) - we're not that girly, at all - we hate hardcore action movies - we giggle 24/7 - we are scared of almost anything (omg especially that hannibal guy)  - we dont always like the "tall dark and handsome" guy (umm i do!? whats wrong with that?) - AIM is our life - we ALWAYS think were fat, ALWAYS - our personalities change in high school - we have celebrity "boyfriends"  - were scared of clowns(they're weird lookin...) - and were scared of the dark - we LOVE horror movies  - we dont try not to be sluts, we just ARENT (except for bonnie...and lindsay...and sometimes alex...) - we take things alot more serious then it seems(we laugh it off, but sometimes it does hurt. be gentle with us. we break in more ways than u think. that small "fat joke" mite cause depression) omg yes. - we run around our house nekked! (is that wierd?) - during sleep overs, we talk about the guys we'd go all the way with (umm so0o0o true) - we arent athletic (i'm sorta athletic?) - we trust you more than our girl friends (so0o0o true) - we are conceited, we just dont like to admit it - we cover ourselves in foundation and lots of makeup! - no matter how nice we are, we CAN be bitches (you've all seen it. beware.) - we love being scared (as long as ur the one to comfort us after wards...;) - cuddling is our specialty  - i LOVE cars and know NOTHiNG about them - we hate alot of people (we just dont like to admit it) - we cat fight  - we scream when were mad  - we dont squeal when we break a nail (i do!) - the food in expensive resturaunts always taste better - bubble baths sooth us - when we dont know what to say on the phone, we sigh (usually just a little throat sigh, not a deep one) - we are serious people...most of the time (but never around u cuz u make us happy!!) - our hair makes up who we are - we eat everything (except peanut butter, apple juice, animal crackers) - i love cartoons - our cell phones are our best friend - we love the color pink hmm alexxx is bored... like superness. my mom left me 'til saturday and i am scared!!! LOL well i am tired...i will go now bye Current Mood: okay Current Music: Ashlee Simpson- Autobiography (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 22nd, 2004
1:51 pm	RiGhT nOw, i'M SoLo, BuT ThaT wiLL bE cHaNgiN EvEnTuaLLy (i WiSh...) god school sucks this year so far. looking back, freshman year is starting to look good. its like one bad thing after another and nothing good happens. i'm sick of this crap, i'm numb to it. break my heart and i wont cry anymore. rip it in half and just see if i feel it. crack it into a thousand pieces and i wont feel any worse than i do now. shoot me and i'm alrieady dead. wow thats depressing. everyones pissin me off about this whole me and lindsay thing its not a big deal!!!! GET THE FREAK OVER iT!!! i like this guy but according to his "theory" he's not the nice person i thought he was. thats how all guys are they act all nice and crap but when youre not around they tell everyone in the football locker room how easy you are. and any girl that doesnt believe me is stupid and you've fallen for it. oh well cuz he makes me wanna lala on the kitchen on the floor i'll be his french maid and meet him at the door he makes me wanna SCREAM... yea lets just see how this plays out and how bad my heart breaks cRaCk </3 got stains on my t-shirt and I'm the biggest flirt right now I'm solo, but that will be changing eventually, oh got bruises on my heart and sometimes I get dark if you want my auto, want my autobiography,              baby,            just ask me.... i learned the coolest thing yesterday---you can actually run a car off everclear!!! how freakin cool i want to try it. "whiskey makes me naucious now who the hell needs that if youre thinkin 'bout drinkin the answers crystal clear...its called everclear" haha me and bonnie kno about that!!! i was out tanning today and it started raining, like out of the middle of no where. that kinda made me mad but lately i've been trying to be happy or at least act like it. i finished my english paper and i would put it up here and all but its too personal i think and people who read this already think i am depressed. lacrosse started this week---YUCK. i want to get on varsity this year tho so i'm gonna try my hardest. especially this thing coach calls a "bad attitude". but that would be really cool if i could make it but i know i prolly wont. and plus we have to do recruiting for the next week or two so if you wanna play lacrosse...youre crazy. and thats enough of that. yea well this has been yet another live journal by alex...i guess i will go now. Current Mood: numb Current Music: Ashlee Simpson- LaLa (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 1st, 2004
9:17 pm	GooDbYe SuMMeR, HeLLo ScHooL! oh god, school starts soon. stress is something un-welcome in my life right now. but not many things come welcome except for packages and a good song on the radio. at first i was kind of looking forward to it. i got it into my head that since last year totally sucked balls then maybe sophmore year would be pretty cool. but i thought about it some more and realized how naive i must be to think that things would actually turn out good for me. but whatever it will be another school year, another blow to the head. another chance to live life to its suckiest and metal another inch closer to my skull. wow, that was depressing. today i went shopping with my mom and it blowed. she stresses me out. as if its not enough for alex to think she is fat, her mom does too. both of my parents were models so that's what i have to live up to. yea tuff stuff. i love my mom and all but god she can be the worst person on earth sometimes. she makes me feel like shit and i cant stand it. i'm at my lowest when i dont meet her standards. i'm sick of typing this is too depressing Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Dropkick Murphys (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 27th, 2004
7:52 pm	OmG <3 PaRiS HiLToN! i want to start out by saying that mcaskill, i am sorry to hear that you think being a band nerd (quote) "bites the big one". to be truthfully honest, it breaks my heart. i love the band nerds. they are my favorite. and in respect of the band nerd, i will give out the band nerd award. My Favorite Band Nerd That Goes To Cy-Ridge Band Nerd Award goes to Matt!!! y'all prolly dont know him but hes super cool and hes on drumline!!! thats so hot. like how me and lindsay are going to do the whole drumline. dont ask. speaking of me and lindsay we decided our role models are paris and nicole. we are sum super wild chicas!!! and i cant wait to go shopping for school clothes. i think i am getting my hair done friday. i got my permit today!!! woo-hoo stay off the roads. i am seriously the worst driver ever. i go really slow cuz i'm so afraid i'm gonna crash. i have decided to let everyone know what my favorite things are. they are written in blue:   PaRiS HiLToN omg everyone knows she is my idol!!!! she is the coolest and now that i have my side kick lindsay (as nicole) we are cRaZy!!!!!!! watch out for us!!! FooTbaLL wow what a great sport. it's my favorite. of all time. and i cant wait for season to start. and when it does, dont even bother talkin to me if you arent talkin about football cuz i'm prolly not listenin. my family is football crazy too. its all we ever talk about. so that is why football is one of my obsessions---its so awesomely cool. BaNd NeRdS dUh!!! if you didnt know that i <3 band nerds then you need to like get a life. and if you dont like band nerds, you are a loser. and if you ARE a band nerd, you are so cool. i totally respect what you do even if mcaskill says "it bites the big one". so band nerds=<3 JoHnnY dEpp wow hottest man on earth no joke. if i could have the perfect man, it would be johnny depps body and a mix of chris carabba (from Dashboard Confessional), and Ron White (they call me...TaTeR SaLaD!!) hahaha that guy cracks me up. so my perfect guy would be hot like johnny (omg so0o0o hot) hilarious like Ron White and sweet & romantic like chris carabba...hmm yea right!!! PiRaTeS i wish i could be a pirate. my first mate of the bed chamber would be johnny depp and we would sail the ocean blue. omg YeSSS. of course he would have to wear that pirate outfit. but besides that, i think pirates are just as cool as band nerds; if not cooler (sorry band nerds!) but pirates are cool and one day when i'm old and retired, i will be one. 80's MuSiC enough said. i listen to it ALL the time. i <3 it!!!   stuff i dont like: -mean people -peanut butter -people who try to be someone they arent -apple juice -little kids (even tho i work in a daycare; how ironic.) -the color purple -democrats -animal crackers -hockey (sorry ian!)   i know theres more but i just cant think of it... i have to go anyway!!! i'll write more later!!!! Current Mood: awake Current Music: nO MuSiC ToDaY! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 7th, 2004
9:53 am	aLeX= blah... i guess not much has changed since i last wrote in here...except for cory (!),  which i'm not gonna write much about that considering he could be reading this and i would be super beyond embarassed!!! so yea i havent been up to much, just workin. workin=wUt a BiTcH!!! haha its money tho!!! ok band nerd award time. My Favorite Person That WiSHES They Were A Band Nerd-Band Nerd Award: Goes to Sarah McCaskill cuz we both wish we were cool enough to be band nerds!!! they are so cool!!! and pirates too and 80s music and johnny depp!!! to explain this whole obsession me and laura have with our role models, she is OBSESSED with britney spears (lauren mckinley can back me up on that one!) and my role model is paris hilton; and no my brothers grant and brett---i HAVE NOT and WiLL NOT watch the paris hilton sex tape...so QUiT ASKiNG!!! but my opinion is that mindsay green should have nicole as her role model and then we will match. or you could mcaskill. haha i aint first class but i aint white trash, some boys dont like girls like me, o0o0o but some boys do!!! damn i feel really bad yesterday when i was hangin out with cory and my brother grant and laura who i guess if we are grant, brett, addison, and brandon's new sisters, that makes me and her sisters...anyway back to the point... i was being a real ass hole let me tell ya bout it. cory prolly hates me for it; but my opinion is that i'm just PMS yea i said it.  this is possibly the longest journal entry i have ever written...i cant wait for school to start so i can see all my friends i miss everyone so much it is unreal. you never know how good something was until its gone---like being able to see everyone everyday and now i cant considering its summer!! well i will go this entry is too long. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: 80's music--wut else??!! haha (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004
1:15 pm	HmMmM...bOrEd i have today off work...so i am b-o-r-e-d. it is raining and i wanted to go work out, but i guess i cant now!! arrr.. anyway, my dad blackmailed me and told me to write him a letter on why i hate him. damn, its not my fault hes a total asshole and i hate him. i mean come on how gay is that. i hate my life. this song i'm listening to reminds me of someone i wish i could forget...we used to listen to it all the time and its kinda depressing, considering i'm wondering what hes doin right about now...band nerd award time!!! Band Nerd AND Computer Geek (its like a two-in-one deal!!!) Band Nerd Award: Goes to Brant Palasche, because not only can he tell you how many minutes of music a 256 MB mp3 player holds, but he can also tell you the entire scales for the saxaphone!!! how cool is that? yea well i guess i'm done writing in this here live journal. just know i am pissed at my dad cuz hes such a jerk and i wish i never had to see him again. but what can you do about court orders? thats right, nothing. LiKe A cHaMp!!!! (got that from hayden hahaha)   Current Mood: okay Current Music: Oasis-Wonderwall (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 15th, 2004
8:32 pm	sUmmEr! ok, so my job of being a daycare worker totally blows. i guess i'm just not cut out for changing diapers, especially annabelle's...god i dont know how any child that size can shit so much. i know thats nasty to talk about but i think that if you are reading alex william's live journal, you should expect anything. ok band nerd award time. Band Nerd That I Miss The Most So Far This Summer: Nolan!!!! he's so cool beans!!!! and he never talks which is totally sci-fi madness cool because i could NEVER do something like that!!! make laur moan(thats laura): idk many band nerds my true tears(thats me!): wow you must be the biggest loser. i know them all make laur moan: no, that would make you the loser. my true tears: i should make band nerd trading cards make laur moan: then i would have to shoot you.   breaking news: i have just found out that anthony dirisio has quit band...i'm so dissapointed in you anthony. so my summer's been pretty busy with that day-care job i have...my birthday is coming up!!!!!!! june 27!!! feel free to throw me a surprise party, but just tell me ahead of time. other than that, i'm really depressed because of stuff thats been happening at home. i'm not gonna talk about it here because i dont feel like typing that much. just know that it's really depressing and i'm super sad about it. i need to go bye! Current Mood: okay Current Music: George Strait- True (i <3 country!!) (Comment on this)
Friday, May 28th, 2004
11:27 pm	WoW i LoVe yOu PeOpLe... let me just say how much i love all my friends who i dont know wut i would do without. laura, stephanie, carly, lindsay, mcaskill, everyone else...i love you guys and i'm always there for you no matter wut!!! i dont know wut i would do with out you..! ok, i know everyone has been dissapointed considering i have been grounded and i havent been able to give out my band nerd awards. The Happy Belated Birthday Band Nerd Award: goes to Danae!!! her birthday was like four months ago, but i didnt even know until last week!!! god, shows how much i know about my band nerds...   my mom says i remind her of angela anaconda...do you think so? i dont know why i always end up liking guys that i know will never like me!!! o well i like this guy (mcaskill knows who i'm talkin about!!!) but he will never like me. o well wut else is new. umm not much has been goin on my brother is graduating yay!!! otherwise my life has been pretty dull bye</3 Current Mood: dorky Current Music: 99.5 the wolf- - - a country radio station here in dallas (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 10th, 2004
12:56 pm	... i'm depressed and i want to die. and dont ask me why because i hate it when people do that. and no its not because of that guy. Current Mood: depressed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 5th, 2004
3:11 pm	uMmM...tHiS wAs My DaY! First i must give out the band nerd awards of the day: The Always Nipping Band Nerd Award: goes to Brandon Jones because he nips 24-7!!! The Smartest Band Nerd I Know (that was sarcasm) Award: This award goes to mormon Daniel for playing hacky-sack with his pencil and then poking his eye out with it, so he had to go to the nurse for it. wow dan, you are the smartest band nerd i know...   yea so anyway, my day was pretty cool...i guess. i'm stressed out about my grades, i'm failing like every class except english and biology. i need a tutor for geometry, so i need to find one of those...so if you are smart in geometry call me!!!! hahaha. anyway ummm my day sucked cuz of the normal shit at our school and plus guy crap(wut else is new good grief). but o well . bye Current Mood: stressed Current Music: Twista-Celebrity Overnight (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, April 30th, 2004
10:10 pm	mY wEEk mOnDaY- wow i had an awesome monday!! My mom let me stay home cuz i was sick...yea... haha. Anyway, i woke up early and had my coffee (yea i couldnt live without that stuff). Then i went to the gym and worked out for like 2 hours and there was this really cool fat guy. How ironic is that? And after that i went tanning and next i had lunch at subway where i saw an old friend of mine. TuEsDaY-wEdNeSdAy-ThUrSdAy-TEKS blows...but it was kinda cool cuz we got to watch movies and i got to talk to people and stuff FrIdAy- well, all my band nerds were gone (sad face here). damn i hate fake people and mean people. i hate people who think that in order to be cool they can't be themselves!!! yea so i guess i will go now... Current Mood: cranky Current Music: Noble-Dropkick Murphys (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 27th, 2004
9:49 pm	My FiRsT JoUrNaL Wow this is cool...my first journal!! yea you can tell i have no life!!! Anyway, i hope i will be able to put all my thoughts and stuff in here because otherwise there would be no point!!! Ummm i have to go i will write later. Current Mood: Wow i'm happy for once! Current Music: T.I.-Rubber band man (Comment on this)